Cho's Madness: 'You Forced Me Into a Corner' -- Update

NBC is releasing segments of Cho's video statements, which were reportedly contained in 27 QuickTime video files that were linked into a hypertext version of his 1,800-word manifesto at the appropriate places. The network has also released some of the 29 photos Cho sent in the package, including the one above.

The name on the return address was "A. Ishmael", which makes it clear for the first time that the mysterious phrase found written written on his arm represents an alter ego.

From Cho's statements:

When the time came, I did it. I had to.

I didn't have to do this. I could have left. I could have fled. But no. I will no longer run. If not for me, for my children. For my brothers and sisters that you fucked. I did it for them.

You had a hundred billion chances and ways to have avoided today, but you decided to spill my blood. You forced me into a corner and gave me only one option. The decision was yours. Now you have blood on your hands that will never wash off.

Jesus loves crucifying me. You loved introducing cancer in my head and terrorizing my heart, raping my soul all this time.

You have vandalized my heart, raped my soul and torched my conscience. You thought it was one pathetic boy's life you were extinguishing. Thanks to you, I die, like Jesus Christ, to inspire generations of the weak and the defenseless people.

Do you know what it feels like to be spit on your face and have trash shoved down your throat? Do you know what it feels like to dig your own grave? Do you know what it feels like to have your throat slashed from ear to ear. Do you know what it feels like to be torched alive? Do you know what it feels like to be humiliated and be impaled upon on a cross and left to bleed to death for your amusement? You have never felt a single ounce of pain your whole life. Did you want to inject as much misery in our lives as you can, just because you can?

You had everything you wanted. Your Mercedes wasn't enough, you brats. Your golden necklaces weren't enough, you snobs. Your trust fund wasn't enough. Your vodka and cognac weren't enough. All your debaucheries weren't enough. Those weren't enough to fulfill your hedonistic needs. You had everything.

__Update: __NBC has now released five selected pages of the 23-page manifesto that Cho sent as a PDF file -- with adult language blacked-out to conform with NBC's standards and practices.

Of interest is page 11, which includes the sentence: "You wanna rape us John Mark Karrs? You wanna rape us Debra LaFaves? (Redacted) you." John Mark Karr is the former substitute teacher who made a false confession in the unsolved murder of JonBenét Ramsey. Debra LaFave is a former teacher who pleaded guilty to having sexual relations with a 14-year-old student in 2005.

The same page includes the phrase "Number of the Anti-Terrorist" above a hand drawing of the number 88. Eighty-eight was also used as the house number in the apparently-false return address on the envelope. According to Wikipedia, "Eighty-eight is used as code among white supremacists to identify each other. H is the 8th letter of the alphabet, so 88 is taken to stand for HH which in turn means Heil Hitler."

Though given his disjointed manifesto and the insanity of Cho's final acts, it's possible none of this meant anything outside of his mind.

(Photo: NBC News)